OMG....really?

I am writing this at such an ungodly hour on a Sunday morning. Being up early isn't so bad, but being up this early after working late last night kind of sucks. I had to be up for the cable repair man. We've had internet issues. As I thought, it is on their end, not ours. Hope it is fixed soon. Anyway...onto important things. I feel like today is going to be a turn around type of day. Lately I have been struggling with my journey. Today I will step up and get my groove back. Sometimes the path from fat to fit can be so daunting. Especially when you have over 100 lbs to lose. But like a friend once told me, it took years to put on the weight. It won't come off in a day. I have to remind myself that although it seemed like it happened overnight, my weight gain was very gradual and it will be reversed in the same manner. We never see the weight piling on; we just look in the mirror one day and say "WTF happened to me?!" It hits us suddenly; we don't look like we thought we did! So, in our minds it was a sudden change, and we want it to change back quickly. When it doesn't happen, we can get discouraged and give up. I am proud of myself. I didn't give up this time like I have in the past. I will lose this weight, even if it takes a year! I can do this. I've made progress already. I look forward to better days, not behind to glory days. I am going to keep working out, huffing and puffing my way to a higher endurance level. I am going to keep eating healthy, realizing with each meal how disgusting my old habits really were. I will use food for fuel, not a reward. I am not a dog! (right, Amber? LOL!) I will keep talking to myself (not in public though; people stare) and pushing myself to be my best. No matter what comes up, no matter who tries to stand in my way....even if it is me....I will keep moving ahead. So, as I said earlier, today is a new day. A turn around day. Mentally, I am starting over. A new attitude can work wonders on a fitness journey. So, here I go with my head held higher than it has been in a long time. I am going to be the best me I can be. I will take things one day at a time and not get discouraged. I will be fit again. *sigh* Man, that felt good to admit! You know, now I feel awake enough for an early morning workout. Off I go.....