Smooth sailing......

I am on to something new: smoothies. I love these things! They are healthy and totally easy to make. They taste so good you would swear they were junk food, but they are 100% nutritious. My personal mix is one banana, two mandarin oranges, one package of Weight Watchers white chocolate raspberry yogurt, and some ice. Voila! Fruity awesomeness! No, I am not particularly endorsing Weight Watchers. I just really like their white chocolate raspberry yogurt! Ok, so here is the caloric breakdown: yogurt - 100 calories, banana - 80 to 100 calories, mandarins - 32 calories each. So we have a total of about 264 calories of fruity goodness. It keeps me feeling full, and it is absolutely delicious. Also, it is thick, so it takes time to consume and that makes me feel more satisfied. It is some weird psychological thing, but if I can eat something quickly, like just a yogurt or some string cheese, it hardly feels like a snack and I tend to eat more. The smoothie takes time to drink, and my mind feels like I spent enough time on it to be satisfied. Minds are so strange! Anyway, this is my new favorite snack. I am still on the good road. Still losing weight. Now I have a sweet treat to enjoy on my journey! Mmmmmmm!

An apology to my body......

Dear body:

I am sorry for mistreating you for so many years. I want to apologize for eating shitty food and being lazy. You craved veggies and fruit; I gave you pizza. You thirsted for water; I drowned you in soda. You needed exercise; I sat on my fat ass and became weak. Thank you for not giving up on me, even when it seemed I had given up on you. I appreciate the fact that you didn't shut down and kill me for revenge. All these years of having to process all the crap I forced upon you must have been horrifying. I am so sorry! You deserve so much better. You are such an amazing work of art, and from now on you will be treated as such! No more junk or soda, only the goodness you crave. I will fill you with nutrients and energy, and I will build up your muscles again. I will do everything I can to give you back your healthy skin. I'm truly sorry about the stretch marks. You didn't deserve that. I will do my best to make them fade. I will get this weight off of you, and ease the stress I have put upon the bones and organs that somehow still thrive inside you. No longer will you be abused. I love you, and I want to take care of you. Please forgive me for the last couple of decades. Consider today a new beginning. You are loved, and you are wonderful, and I intend to treat you like royalty!

Sincerely,
the lazy, fat-ass human inhabiting you

Doing it, and doing it well......

I did it. I worked out today! Good lord, it felt GREAT!!!! True, my stamina will need to be rebuilt, but I felt awesome! I did 30 minutes of cardio and muscle building, then I walked for a bit. The walk was cut short due to rain, but it was still a good walk. I had forgotten how good it feels to do these things. I was also surprised at the energy I had. Being that my last workout was quite some time ago, I figured I would have great difficulty as I did when I first began. Not so! True, I wasn't as strong as I had been, but I wasn't exactly weak either! It feels good to be back on track. I predict I will shed those last 4 pounds before the end of this week. Then, I will be back on my way to my ultimate goal : 145 pounds. No more slip ups, I am ready to succeed! Let's go!

Still at it....

I was 251 this morning. Seems to be just melting away! Too bad it won't be so easy the entire time. I am going grocery shopping in a bit. I will try to make the best choices, and I plan to work out later today. Good thing I live close to a good hospital. Wish me luck! I am back on track and on my way to slimville....

Going...going.......

I was 252 this morning. Hoping that doesn't increase! I feel better, and I am only about 5 pounds away from where I was before my slip up. Awesome! I still haven't worked out, but I feel ready, so time willing I will do it this weekend! I am contemplating doing the unthinkable : I may try to go clothes shopping. Ugh! Never a favorite thing to do! But now I feel a little more confident, so I am curious to see how I react to trying on clothes. Should prove interesting. We shall see....

Back in the saddle!

Well, I slept in today and dammit I liked it!!!! Lol! But seriously...I was good and had a healthy breakfast. I weighed myself and amazingly I am down 4 pounds since Sunday! I had gained back to about 260, and today I am 256. Nice! Also, my waist is down to the smallest yet, which is 42 inches. Not small, but better than the dreaded 50-something inches I started out at so long ago. I am slowly climbing back up to where I was last month: 22 pounds down and counting. My set back took me back to 260, but at least I didn't blow up all the way back to 268! That would be so depressing! Anywho, I am now back on track and feeling better each day. I want to work out today, but unfortunately I have other commitments and won't have time. Tomorrow, though; tomorrow I plan to do my first workout in weeks. Here's to hoping I don't need CPR when I am through! Until then....

Round Two.....

Ok, so today I began eating like a good, healthy individual again. I think I have remained within that 1,000 to 1,200 calorie limit. I didn't workout yet, but one thing at a time! Jeeze, I just got back to eating healthy. Let me shave off about 5 or 10 pounds before I kill myself working out. As for the eating, I admit I have enjoyed my indulgences of late. Today I did feel a bit deprived and hungry, but I know that it is just my mind wanting me to snack. My body isn't hungry. Hell, I just finished off a great dinner of baked chicken, steamed veggies, and brown rice. So why do I feel hungry? Because my mind hates me. It thinks I need to be stuffing my face 24-7 to feel comfortable. I have to break this train of thought. I need to feel full and satiated after a good meal. I hope to feel better tomorrow, and by the end of the week I should be working out again. I hope. Here's to losing those stubborn 22 pounds....again...ugh...