Then and now....

I just finished my daily workout. I did the 20 minute Turbo Jam and I walked my usual mile. I know today is elliptical day, but it is raining like mad and I didn't feel like venturing out in it. Instead, I did my 1 mile Leslie Sansone Super Walk. Now I am enjoying a bagel with natural peanut butter and a bowl of red seedless grapes. I think of it as a healthy pb&j, without all the sugar and crap. I was thinking about what has changed in my life. I now workout everyday, when I used to lay around on the couch and eat pizza. I snack on fruits and veggies, when I used to snack on chips and cookies. Junky food doesn't interest me anymore. I mean, sure, it tastes good; but now I see it as the artery-clogging, fat-inducing, chaotic, chemical shit-storm it really is. My hubby is still trying to eat healthy, but he has been wavering just a bit. The other night he wanted to buy a pack of cinnamon rolls. I held the pack up to his gut and said, "Why don't you just go ahead and tape them on here. They are headed there anyway." Needless to say, he put them back. But he is trying. He isn't working out yet, but a small change is better than none. Besides, it took me years and many failed attempts to finally get my shit straight. He will learn eventually.
 Anyway, back to my reminiscing. I am just amazed at what I used to eat; what I used to find acceptable. How could I do that to my body? Now I am paying the price; I have about 120lbs to lose. Seriously. People say I don't look that big. Maybe I carry it weird, but it is there. At my heaviest, which wasn't long ago, I was 270lbs. My normal weight should be around 140lbs. That means I was carrying an extra 130lbs! That is an entire other person! Gross! I don't even want to imagine the strain I have caused on my joints and my organs thus far. That is why this weight loss is so important to me. I don't want to be a supermodel; I want to be healthy and happy. I want to live past 40. So everyday, I push play. Rain or shine; hell or high water. I will keep going until I am healthy, then I will maintain that health. It feels good to finally be on the right track!  :)