Old age strikes again.....

Did I miss something? I think I forgot to post yesterday! Crap! This old age is sneaking up on me! Well, to recap, I was excellent. I am still eating properly. I even went out to lunch with a friend, and while she ordered unhealthy junk (like I used to), I ordered healthy food and drank water. One test down, many to go. What test? The friend test. See, I always felt I could eat what my friends ate because if they did it, what was the harm? I knew they wouldn't care if I cheated and had junk. They're my friends, they love me no matter what. It is very easy to slip up when your friends are there. I stood my ground and stuck to my healthy plan. Sure, she wouldn't have cared if I strayed, but I would. And I have to live with the aftermath, not her. So like I said, I passed that test! Also, I am still exercising. Still can't believe I am already down 8 pounds! This is great! I look forward to my workouts now. I crave vegetables. My god, I have been reborn. Lol...to the new me!

Hell Yes!!!!

I did excellent today! I ate well, Drank tons of water, exercised....and I am now down 8 POUNDS!!!! Holy shit! I was so happy I actually screamed! I feel good, no, GREAT. I am eating, I never feel starved, I have tons of energy. I am losing weight and it isn't agony! This is awesome! I am learning so much about health and food and my body. I am an idiot for not doing this sooner. This is the best I have ever felt. I didn't even wheeze once tonight during my workout. Not bad for a fatty, huh? Well on my way to being a former fatty! See you tomorrow!

Gah! I missed one!

OK, I didn't post in time, so this one will say Thursday, but it is really for Wednesday. I am proud of me today. I managed to keep with my healthy eating and exercise. I am learning more each day about why I over eat and why certain foods set me off. It isn't enough to change, you need to understand why. I am really learning how my body works and what I need to give it to make it work better. This is why diets never worked. Diets aren't enough. You have to understand your body and you have to understand food. I have been so blind to so many things. No wonder I am such a lard ass. I had blinders on! This journey is shaping up to be an interesting one. I finally feel like I am making a significant change. I am working for my health, instead of just trying to diet and hoping to be healthy. I finally feel like I am accomplishing something! We'll see what tomorrow brings. More exercise. Possible traction. But I am determined to get the hang of this exercise stuff. Catch you on the flip side...

(Who am I kidding? You can't flip a fat chick!)

Waisting away....

Today was so-so. I was a good girl. I ate breakfast! I had a bowl of some kind of fiber cereal that actually tasted OK. Most of them taste like shitty cardboard. As a snack, I had a slice of low fat bread with some healthy butter. Lunch was the customary tuna and steamed veggies. (the veggie/pasta from yesterday) I got a little stressed and resorted back to my binging ways. Fear not! I gorged myself on steamed veggies! Yes, I ate a whole plate full of broccoli, carrots, and cauliflower. I used to get stressed and binge on junk, but today I binged on healthy food. There was no guilt afterwards. I felt great! Finally, a loop hole! I can over eat, so long as it is done with veggies. Nice. I didn't get to work out today, and I actually felt bad about that. Things just got away with me today and there was no time. I suppose it is good to rest your muscles, though. No biggie. Oh, and by the way....I am already down 4 pounds! How awesome is that? This is starting to look as though it may work. We shall see. I feel great. I feel full. I feel happy!

All in all, a good day.....

Today was a very good day. OK, life wise, it was a hassle. Errands and paying bills, the usual grown-up stuff. But as far as my journey to good health, man I really knocked it out of the box! I missed breakfast (again) but instead of playing "catch up" with my calories, I simply downed a small bottle of milk while I was out and then I ate a healthy lunch when I got home. Milk helps settle my stomach if I am too busy to eat. Lunch was tuna and a half serving of steamed veggies and pasta. I ACTUALLY HALVED SOMETHING!!!! Normally I intend to only eat half, and then I end up gulping it all down. Healthy or not, if you overindulge on any food it takes a toll. Not today! I put the veggie/pasta in two different containers, and one went immediately into the fridge for tomorrow! Out of sight, out of mind. Funny, my usual way would have been to eat all the veggie/pasta....but after eating just half and giving it a few minutes, I realized I was full. I really have been gorging myself. Yuck. After my lunch settled, I did that workout again. I wanted to do it twice, but my body said absolutely not. Oh well. I did it once, and I feel great! Seriously. I do! I feel tired, and I have muscles aching that I didn't even know existed....but I feel great. I used to think happiness was a squishy couch and a bag of chips, or a whole pizza, or Taco Bell. Now I see the truth: it was instant gratification, but I felt like shit later. By eating healthy and working out, I feel great and the feeling goes on. I couldn't feel good long or brag about sitting on my fat ass gobbling junk. I can feel good and brag about eating right and working out. I like this! I had an epiphany, I suppose. I should eat to give my body fuel so I can get better at my workouts. I shouldn't eat to find comfort or to reward myself. Yeah, I know. This isn't exactly news to the world. People have been saying this for years. I guess I just had to learn it for myself. Isn't that always the case? Why does life have to be so complicated? Oh well. Lesson learned. I did well today. I "decided, committed, and succeeded." OK, so I "wheezed and collapsed" too....but I didn't vomit. Onward and upward....

The workout....sort of....

OK, so I didn't do too bad today. I think I ate too much. Some sandwiches, some leftovers....kinda blew it today. I did get some exercise, though. For one, I cleaned house. That is a good way to burn some calories. In the average woman, one hour of cleaning burns about 500 I think. So, adjusting the margin for a woman of my size, I'd say I probably burned about 23. Yay. Isn't it great to be hefty? The average women who don't need to lose weight are burning off calories left and right. Meanwhile, if I so much as sniff a bran muffin I gain 5 pounds. Life is cruel. On the plus side(no pun intended), I discovered a new workout today. No more slow paced beginner crap for me! No, I found a more fast paced cardio/ab kind of thing. The fact that I am able to write this lets you know I survived, although not by much. Good lord. I was Ms. Motivation at the start....and Ms. Dear-hell-I-can't-breathe about 30 minutes later. Those DVDs need to be more honest. The beginning showed a motto: "Decide. Commit. Succeed." Made my chest swell with pride and intention. What it should have also said was, "Wheeze. Collapse. Vomit." That would have at least prepared me for what was to come. No matter! I am determined! Hopefully in a week I won't feel like hot death after the workout. I love to work out, but my body disagrees with me. We have a long battle ahead. Me against my fat and atrophied muscles. I may go down, but at least I'll go down swinging! Or hyperventilating. Or lapsing into a coma. Time will tell....