Decisions, decisions......

Well, I think I have made up my mind. More cardio it is! I will attempt to alternate the Turbo Jam Cardio Party and the Turbo Jam 20 Minute Jam. I will also be doing the Turbo Jam Ab Jam on the same days as the 20 Minute Jam. We'll see how that schedule works for me. So I suppose it will be Sunday, Tuesday, Thursday cardio; and Monday, Wednesday, Friday 20 min/Abs. Saturday is my free day. It may take some tweaking before I find a schedule that works, but this seems like a good start. I definitely need to focus on cardio right now. I want to burn some fat! Lot's of it! Tomorrow should be interesting, to say the least. Until then....

Finally!!!!!!!!

I slept last night! The entire night! The tea freaking worked! I feel so much better. Sleep is so awesome. My hubby wanted me to get pills, and when he saw the tea he said it was a total crock. Well, he drank some too and he slept better than he has in a long time. So ha! I guess mother nature trumps chemicals any day. I have to work tonight, but I am going to try and squeeze in a workout before I go. I am starting to wonder if I should do more cardio to burn more fat, or just keep doing my regular workout? I read in an article today (via my wonderful Beachbody coach, Amber) that you have to get through all the fat in order to see the muscle, so cardio is a good idea to burn off the fat. It got me thinking: someone my size may benefit more from cardio than just a regular workout. If anyone has any pointers, feel free to comment. I am going to try the Turbo Jam Cardio Party today and see if I can survive. LOL. Until tomorrow....

Insomnia sucks......

No, I did not sleep at all last night. Seriously. I finally fell asleep around 8am this morning, then woke up at 9:30am, then dozed again until 11:30am. Needless to say, I have felt like hammered shit all day. After my workout I went to buy groceries. I looked at the sleep aids, but I hated the amount of unknown chemicals in each. Even the ones made of "natural" ingredients had chemicals I couldn't pronounce. I decided to try herbal tea. I got something called "Celestial Seasonings Sleepy Time Blend". I hope it works. I just wanted to use a truly natural remedy. Chemicals suck.

On a lighter note, I have a new short term goal. My husband and I are going to visit his dad in about 3 weeks. We haven't seen him in almost 4 years. I want to slim down as much as possible so I won't look like a fat lump when we see him. I know it shouldn't matter, but I just want to look decent so he won't think his son has a blob for a wife. Anyway, I have 3 weeks to try and shed some serious poundage. Don't worry, I won't go off the deep and starve myself. None of that foolishness. I plan to eat right and work out, but I really want to lose as much as I can. So that is my next goal. To shed some noticeable weight before the visit. I think I can do it. Time will tell. Until tomorrow....

Quickie....

No big post today because my internet has been going out randomly all day. The company is doing repairs in my area, and I don't want to start a big blog and lose it. All is well. I will return tomorrow.

OMG....really?

I am writing this at such an ungodly hour on a Sunday morning. Being up early isn't so bad, but being up this early after working late last night kind of sucks. I had to be up for the cable repair man. We've had internet issues. As I thought, it is on their end, not ours. Hope it is fixed soon. Anyway...onto important things. I feel like today is going to be a turn around type of day. Lately I have been struggling with my journey. Today I will step up and get my groove back. Sometimes the path from fat to fit can be so daunting. Especially when you have over 100 lbs to lose. But like a friend once told me, it took years to put on the weight. It won't come off in a day. I have to remind myself that although it seemed like it happened overnight, my weight gain was very gradual and it will be reversed in the same manner. We never see the weight piling on; we just look in the mirror one day and say "WTF happened to me?!" It hits us suddenly; we don't look like we thought we did! So, in our minds it was a sudden change, and we want it to change back quickly. When it doesn't happen, we can get discouraged and give up. I am proud of myself. I didn't give up this time like I have in the past. I will lose this weight, even if it takes a year! I can do this. I've made progress already. I look forward to better days, not behind to glory days. I am going to keep working out, huffing and puffing my way to a higher endurance level. I am going to keep eating healthy, realizing with each meal how disgusting my old habits really were. I will use food for fuel, not a reward. I am not a dog! (right, Amber? LOL!) I will keep talking to myself (not in public though; people stare) and pushing myself to be my best. No matter what comes up, no matter who tries to stand in my way....even if it is me....I will keep moving ahead. So, as I said earlier, today is a new day. A turn around day. Mentally, I am starting over. A new attitude can work wonders on a fitness journey. So, here I go with my head held higher than it has been in a long time. I am going to be the best me I can be. I will take things one day at a time and not get discouraged. I will be fit again. *sigh* Man, that felt good to admit! You know, now I feel awake enough for an early morning workout. Off I go.....