Hopeful....

Well, I put in for a full time job with a more organized schedule. I hope to hear something soon, then I can get back to this blog everyday. For now I am trying to reduce abdominal bloat. I eat healthy and vegan, but I always seem bloated. WTF? I am going to try to eat more fruit and veggies and less carbs. Maybe that will help. My stomach is almost flat, but not quite. Grrrrrr! This is frustrating! Any ideas would be greatly appreciated. :)

Bra Shopping Still Sucks......

Well, I went bra shopping today. Had to; my old faithfuls were not so faithful anymore. I hate shopping for bras. Nothing is a more blatant reminder of how much weight I've gained than trying to find a proper fitting bra. Looking in that fitting room mirror, I see the bulges, the overhang, etc. It is really depressing. All I have wanted for the last several years is to be able to buy the little, cute, lacy C cup bras. Instead, I am bound to the thick strapped, bland colored, giant cupped contraptions with 40 fish hooks in the back. Yes, I know there are pretty bras for bigger girls, but they cost a fortune. My esteem was really shaken tonight. I mean, I am going to keep working, keep losing weight; it is just totally depressing to see just how fat I have become over the years. I remember what it was like to buy the cute bras. I hate buying the freaking DD ones. Big boobs are truly overrated. I hope one day I can afford to have these damn things lifted and reduced so I can have my C cups back. I just really hate bra shopping right now. *sigh*