Sneaky....

Yeah, yeah. I know that Saturday is supposed to be my "off" day, but I snuck in a short workout anyway! Just a small 20 minute Turbo Jam session. I did the modified, low-impact version so as not to overwork my muscles. I just felt like moving a bit! Funny, I used to be so lazy. I relished my "off" days. Now I am sneaking in small workouts. I have changed. It is a good feeling. Now I am craving a super salad! I had a nice breakfast (ok, it was actually lunch by the time I got up. gimmie a break, I work 2nd shift!) of whole wheat toast, a banana, and 2 clementines. Yum! I feel better when I eat better. Now to relax a bit with a hearty salad before scampering off to work. Monday is coming up soon. I will be weighing in and measuring. Wonder if I can get back to 253 by then? Until tomorrow....

Oh my darlin' clementine.....

I am enjoying my post-workout clementines! Yay! Who knew a little fruit could bring me such gratification? Wow. I am proud of me. So, today has been ok. I got up and did my adult duties (balancing budgets, grocery shopping) then I came home and worked out for an hour or so. I bought lots of healthy foods at the store this time. No more junk. I felt very good about the choices I made. Working out makes you want to eat healthy. The way I see it, if I am going to sweat my ass off doing a difficult workout, why would I shit all over it by downing junky crap food? All my hard work would be for naught. Screw that! If I am busting ass to get fit, I am NOT eating anything gross or unhealthy! No steps back for me, thank you. I am gearing up for Monday. I plan to resume my weigh and measure day. I did gain some while in my "chunky funk", so now I want to take it all off before Monday. I have about 6 or 7 more pounds to go. Let's see if I can make that happen. Well, that appears to be all I have to say for today. Off to the showers before work tonight. Until tomorrow....

Bipolar babe.....

Bipolar, you ask? Well, I am currently happy and  cranky. I just finished my workout (happy), but I am out of clementines (cranky)! Grrrrr! I will be sure to buy some tomorrow when I go shopping. Now all I have is a glass of water and no fruit. *sigh* Oh well. I should pay more attention to my fridge, no? Anyway, I learned that I need to cut my ab workouts down to every other day. I don't really want to do that, but overworking my abs is not a good idea. I was actually overdoing it (who, me?) and I was getting nauseated during the routine. I found out that is a sign of too much too soon. So, I am now doing ab work every other day. I suppose it is better to be safe than sorry, right? Other than that, not much is new. I feel pretty awesome lately. I have more energy. No more "chunky funk"; I'm a happy girl! Ok, I am semi-happy today. I want my clementines. Dammit. Ok, no more whining. I'll live. Now, to the showers!

Fruits of labor.....

My keyboard is a bit sticky. I am sitting here post-workout, blogging and munching on clementines. They are easy to peel, but I still make a mess. Oh well. They are honestly the BEST snack in the world! Especially after a hard workout. I am proud of me. I did another agonizing but rewarding hour of fitness today. I used to think I had no muscles. Now I know I do. They hurt so damn bad! But in a good way. I ate very well so far. I had a tofu sandwich earlier today, some clementines just now, and I am planning on some brown rice here in a bit. True, I haven't eaten much yet today, but I didn't get up and out until after 12 noon, then I had a 3 hour CPR renewal class, and after running errands I didn't get home and get to eat until after 6pm. Bad Kelly, I know! But I am eating now. I didn't intentionally skip, but shit happens. I will do better tomorrow. As for now, I need a shower and I want to relax a bit. I think I have earned it! I also may need to wipe down my keyboard....ewwww.......

Up and running....well.....walking briskly, anyway.....

Ok, I am back. Yes, I haven't blogged for a few days. I got slack. I admit it. I have been having somewhat of a personal crisis. See, I have a very long way to go before I am at my ideal weight. I want to be fit and healthy, but sometimes just knowing how long it is actually going to take can be very daunting. I totally lost my motivation for a while and I retreated into a depressive state. I felt like "what's the use?" every time I would attempt to workout. I was also slack on my eating, chowing down on unhealthy comfort foods. Yes, vegans have junk food too. I will be honest, no need to try and lie. I gained back 9 pounds in the last 2 weeks. Of course, some of that is water weight from that lovely time of the month, but still, I know some of it is fat. I may have let myself down, but I refuse to give up. I will not let life get in my way again. I have worked too hard to turn back now. Today, I found my motivation again. I worked out for an hour today! A whole hour! I had a light lunch (I didn't drag my ass out of bed until noon.) and now I am having a big bowl of brown rice. Yum! I feel alive once more. I feel healthy again. I actually want to feel good again, instead of getting mired down in a "chunky funk". That is my new term for depressed overeating: chunky funk. Feel free to use it, but give me credit, ok? Anyway, I am finally back on track and stronger than ever before. My head and heart are in the right place now. I can do this! Wow, I feel awesome today.

Old age strikes again.....wait.....what?

Ok, so I didn't blog today. Actually, the last couple days. I also totally spaced today and forgot that it is Monday! I didn't weigh or measure! My god, I am truly slipping. I plan to do those things tomorrow morning as soon as I get up. One day won't make that big a difference, right? *sigh* It seems lately as if the days just get away with me. I never really know what day it is anymore. Old age seems to be sneaking up on me. Maybe it is stress. I am currently employed part time, but I want full time. Everyday I fill out applications and search job listings for Rad tech positions. It has been 2 months to the day since I graduated. I know that isn't terribly long, but I had hoped to find something by now. With limited finances, it is difficult to maintain the healthy diet I crave. I mean, I eat healthy, but just not exactly what I would like to eat. If I had more money, I could afford all the ingredients for some of those vegan recipes I have found, or the tons of fruits and veggies I want, or the zillion healthy toppings for my salads. Instead, I am limited on what I can buy. I eat healthy, but with less diversity than I had hoped. A full time job would change all that. Also, I didn't workout today. I know Monday is my optional day, but I feel like I should have. I hate the guilt. I know skipping a day here and there is necessary, but I always feel bad for it. Oh well. I am just gloomy today. Pay me no mind. Hopefully tomorrow will be brighter. Until then....

What a wonderful feeling....

I have a good excuse for not blogging as much this week. I finally took my Radiography registry yesterday. Well of course I passed, who do you think you're talking to? Anyway, I was studying all week. It was worth it, though! I am now an official RT(R)! Now I can focus 100% on my life and my health! I am so excited! Anyway, I am still eating well and working out. I am starting to see real definition in my muscles. Who knew I even had muscles?! My gut is shrinking away and I can actually locate my hip bones while standing up. Haven't done that in....well...ever, really. My hubby has taken notice too. It encourages me to keep going when he comments on my figure. I mean, he has always loved me no matter what. It just makes a girl feel like a million bucks when her man is pleased with her figure. I love attention. I am a Libra, after all. I crave healthy food now. I tried to eat pizza the other day. I managed to consume 2 small slices, then I felt yucky. I remained yucky all day, and bloated. I used to be able to down entire pizzas. No lie. Gross, embarrassing, but true. Now I can barely stomach 2 slices. I am in love with salads and fruit. I like eating and not feeling bloated. Who would have thought I could fall out of love with pizza? *shocked* Well, I feel great and I need a shower. Just finished a workout. I feel like my life is on an upswing. Finally. I'm really happy about that. Until tomorrow....